Wednesday, September 24, 2008
24 sep 2008is is already the third week of my attachment but, i do not seem very happie.. haix.. wonder how am i supposed to say it.. i had to do daily routine like readin of newspapers and magazines to keep myself updated of what the competitors are doing or are promoting currently which i feel is alright. it helps me to know what is going on instead of juz the company that i am in.i m oso given the opportunity to see how a roadshow is set-up and gain more knowledge on what is expected of a roadshow, the procedures and what are certain restrictions.. also, these few days n few days last week, i am jus simply focusing on doin the translation apart from looking thro the newspapaers and magazines except the roadshow which i went to and also given the opportunity to be in a so-called meeting where 2 pple promote a new mechanism to do with advertising. haha.. it indeed keep me updated about the what the market are doing. however, i do not feel reali happie dere thou the staffs are not bad.. i wish that i can be given an opportunity to assist in doin up the advertisement and/or think of the words to be inserted. haix, but, the person in-charge oli ask the same person 2 assist him.. i do wish i can help too to gain knowledge.. in order to make myself feel beta, i think of various excuses like maybe he wants the same person to assit so that it will be consistent and all.. haix.. hope it will be beta as the days passed, and tt, i can realii be given the opportunity.. oh well, what can i say??? is it fated??
8:54:00 PM
Saturday, September 20, 2008
its has been more than a week since the start of attachment.. had been doing things similar things everyday in order to better understand the competitors.. like wat dey are doing or promoting concurrently.. and also the kind of promotions that are newly launched.. also, do calls, cut and file articles.. thou it seems madane, but, it is able to provide miie knowledge wif what the competitors have.. n,can understand roughly how often an ad by a particular competitor will publicised in a week n usuali in what kind of channel.. however, i hope that i will be given a chance to assist with the editing of the advertisement that is to be published..as i feel this will b a learning journey for miie n oso understand how is the process like in doing up an advertisement... despite this, i am feeling sad n a little moodless as he has enlist for ns on tues.. a pity i couldnt sent him dere as i had to work.. nevertheless, i felt glad n happie tt at least i made n effort to meet him on mon evenin.. we spent some time tgt till night as i had to go work the next day n he had to wake up reali earli to report earli the next morning... felt sad as about 2 weeks cant see him n will not know when he will be free... thus, can oli wait for him 2 contact miie.. but, i will still drop him msg 2 allow him 2 know what i had been doin or where i had gone to during the day so tt he will not worry 4 miie.. do not want to add on to his stress level as he will be tiring n also needs time to adapt to it.. mux take care n drink lotsa water, with ample rest if u can..i miss u..
8:11:00 PM
Monday, September 08, 2008
sep 8, 2008, Mondayit s been an earli rise n shine as i had to head back to sch for the SIP launch.. we had a briefing by director, new course manager, on sip reuirement by a lecturer and oso know our compnay as well as our liaison officer(LO).. we are oso able to ask questions which we r unsure of.. my friends and i are all posted to different company in various locations.. however, i felt reali lucky tt i was posted to a company with one of my friend. i should be hapi as i nid not travel veri far thou its in the east are.. and,its still within the travelling distance(bus) like perhaps 30-40 mins? but, i will nid to change bus.. nevertheless, i should be gladful tt its a well-known company.. hope tt i will be expose to meaningful life-skills from the real-working world.. after the briefing all ended, my frenz, pearl, cait, char, becky n mk went for lunch at cafe cartel at TM.. cait n miie ordered a main course plus a salad and share.. heheh... we oso chat n had laughter.. we oso did a little shopping n after tt, we head home as all of us are tired... things had been better between us as we talked things out and i learn to be more patient.. also, i learnt to understand things, perhaps from a different angle and will try to accommodate and compromise in different kind of situations.. felt better now, as i'm not soooo at a loss.. hope things can be even better, perhaps be like the past before such matter cropped up tt lead to miie feeling veri miserable nor xing ku in the past one week like tt... will appreciate n treasure what i had and try to look further into the further than cling on to the past...
3:17:00 PM
Saturday, September 06, 2008
6 September 2008, Satit been the same.. weekends are simply just bored and all.. for few weekends especialli sat, i have been staying at home.. its either work den come home or merely at home the entire day.. is feeling bored.. this week is especialli bad.. been feeling moodless almost everyday tt on certain days including today, simply had no mood to go work nor do anithing.. things seems to be driftin n meaningless to miie.. the relationship between us oso seems different.dunno how to explain but it just doesnt seem to be like b4.had been having quarrels almost everyday or perhaps should term it as talk?? because of an external matter, which is not internal(exactly between us), that made miie feel miserable, sad, moodless and even feeling very difficult.there seems to b a barrier between us, and i doubt it can be solved.. also, when he meet his friends to go out, he will meet them earli and spent the whole entire day with them.. and, its realli entire day from earli afternoon lik 1plus to middle of the night, like 1plus-2am.. its when, he meet miie, will be lik late afternoon or evenin and 4 jus a mere few hrs oli, with phone calls interrupting.. and, when his fren had last min changes, he can oso make it on time without being late.but when he goes out with miie, he is always late.. n the time is not pust earlier but later and later.. i jus feel very unfair in a way.. haix. perhaps its juz my fate?? i dunno.. reallie exhausted at times n feel like takign a long, long break or hurt myself further.. worst, i think i had develop phobia 4 something bcux of this.. i reali duno how m i suppose to tak it.. it juz seems 2 much to bear nor take it!!at certain times, i will jus hurt myself.. i reali dunno wat 2 do.. lost n unsure of the road ahead..
5:22:00 PM
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
2 September 2008, Tuesday
sambal chili pork
cabbage with tan hoon n dried prawns
bean curd n egg with black pepperit is a rainy day for miie.. been to work, and after work, head to my home nearby supermarket(ntuc) to pirchase some food grocery as i will be preparing dinner for miie, him and my sis.. bought a number of items like pork, cabbage, tan hoon and dried prawns.. haha.. gt home at 5plus n started preparing the food in order to cook it.. sis got home at 5plus to 6pm, but i'm still preparing so she cant eat.. n hav to munch on snacks 1st as she oli ate breakfast. i started cooking the food at 6plus n all 4 dishes was done in about an hour?hahah.. i whip up dishes like cabbage with dried prawns n tan hoon; sambal chili pork and black pepper bean curd with egg and, normal hotdogs with cheese hotdogs.. hmmmmmm...... it was reali delicious.. he said he will reach at 7pluw, however, 5plus called to say 8 plus,as he need to run an arrand, n said will try to reach asap.. despite tt, 9plus, he is still not here...did not even contact to say what time he will be here... after tt, he den called and say he is on his way.. was so angry that i told him he dun hab to come le.. come for what.. said 7plus, den 8plus, 8plus, 9plus not here.. about 9.20 lik tt call to say this.. in the end, reached arnd 10pm.. did not even explain.. its like wth... i cooked dinner for him, this is what i get in return?? i realli cant accept.. the time n effort which i've put in ended with hunger and hurt.. but, arnd 12, his phone ring and its like, i heard the things he said n its reali unbearable for miie to take it... since mon, or perhaps late last wk, it had been lik tt... i reali cant take it..i then told him, u jux go home lah.. if not, i m lik getting blame for nth.. its reali unfair to miie.. we chat, sort of raise my voice and even cried badly..almost broke up bcux emotions are taking over our rational... after talkin n all, i told him to go back.. cant seem to understand why all these had to happen n miie, had to go thru all these, getting blamed n all... realli miserable n hard to absord... feeling very xin ku...
9:01:00 PM
Sunday, August 31, 2008
what is weekends like?? to mani, weekends are filled with wonderful activities and events, happiness and fun. it is usualli with family members or time spent for couples..hmm.. for miie, i do not mind gg out on weekends, but sometimes prefer to stay home do personal stuffs n clearing... however, ytd, was reali moodless and unsure of what to do due to certain things that had taken place... things had been arranged n when i ended work, made the call, there is already changes but she din inform miie.. i'm like, u called mi to make the arrangement, had the venue n time stated, but, when changes had been made n cant be dere at the stated time, i wasnt informed of it.. i was reali disappointed n felt tt, i m like the "dai ti ping" when my sis couldnt make it, u find mii, n when she called u to said she gg to ur destinated location, u agree, n nv even thot of how i will feel.. nor kip mi informed.. thus, in the end, i went to get some stuffs from grandma house n head home.. oso walk under the fallen rain which started when i was walking in towards my grandma blk.. \today, was a rainy day.. it rain for quite a while, after it stoped, a while ltr, it rained again.. stayed at home again.. was supposed to go out, but when he told miie, dere r additional pple (dun wish to state) oso wan go to the venue tt we said we wan go ytd, i simply had no mood.. haix.. perhaps he jus doesnt know what i feel nor tt i do not like it as it was supposed 2 b 2 of us gg out n all.. but, haix.. nvm.. stay home do some clearin n watchin tv.. cant be angry as i oso asked him to go with them, nid not rush or he'll get scolded again.. guess, its something i jx hab 2 endure n accept?? its part n parcel of life?? perhaps not others, but mine??? nevertheless, the day was not very bad.. he decide to make up n told them not to go so far as he meeting miie.. gues, it jus give n take?? but, today is beta than ytd n also din some stuffs of my own... tt saved the day... :-)
5:08:00 PM
Saturday, August 30, 2008
29 AUgust 2008it was a special day today as it was my brother birthday. apart from tt, it was also teacher's day celebration at secondary, jc n primary schools..went back to my secondary school wif friends - julia; jieying; felicia; guangliang; yonglong; alvin; ben huang.. few of us had problem gg into the school due to hair; dressing or either footwear.. but, in the end, we managed to get into the school but had to wait in the canteen.. nevertheless, we waited for some time, n use another way to get up to the hall to watch the ending of the performance for the teacher's.. dere was one whereby a total of 8 teachers - male n female performed.. it was reali fabulous.. after tt, we proceed to the staff room outside to look for the teachers whom we want to talk to.. even took picture with one of our favourite teacher... after tt, we head to the coffeeshop outside school to had lunch.. we parted after tt as few had to head back to sch for their FYP, few go out n some had other things.. i head home for a while b4 heading to pasir ris to meet my fren to help mi wif hte chalet check-in.. i den run here n dere to get the stuffs and purchase some stuffs plus collect the bdae cake.. by the time, i reached back the chalet was like about 7.. oh my god, time reali passed.. even had to trouble my fren to collect the BBQ stuffs 4 mi 1st as the person had arrived n i cpuldnt make it back in time.. they also helped mi to get hte fire started... reali trouble them but we had fun too.. haha... nmy brother reached around 8 - 8plus with few frenz.. we barbecue n ate... had to leave at 10 bcux he need meet his frenz n i need to work, thus i cant c my brother cut cake.. but, glad tt he had fun n all.. all in all, it was a fun-filled day despite the tiredness...
5:40:00 PM
Thursday, August 14, 2008
the da y for miie started out fine as events have been plan.. hahah.. went back to school 4 a last sales tutorial where we will get feedback on our project n presentation.. den char,miie,cait n pearl went to sugarloaf for appetizer as the hot products are sold out shortly... thus, we oli had desserts... we den head back to biz park...hahahah... for lunch.... but, char went to find mz.. after which, i head off for work, cait n pearl went to lib to wait for their cds... nevertheless, i am looking forward to the dinner with ee shuen n shawn.. we had not meet for a realli long time, say, more than a yr?? its finali here tt we will be meeting.. hehehe... we arrange to meet at orchard mrt station, den walk to paragon,.. guess what?? we went to ding tai feng for dinner.. and, its my first time dere if i m not wrong.. it serves hong kong delicacies.. heheh.. yum yum!!! the food is simply delicious n mouth salivating... throughout hte dinner, we oso chat a lot as its been realli long since we met n chat.. we catch up on one another;'s life too... laugh alot tooo.. time reali past within a blink.. soon, it was alrdy 9plus, so we made our way to the counter for payment... as we made our way down to dhoby ghaut, we continued our chat n laughter... it was realli a night of laughter, chat n enjoyment... thanks for the sumptuous dinner and the enjoyment night, ee shuen n shawn.. may many more meetings come along after 2nite.. heheh..
11:44:00 PM
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
it was a sunny n fine day... went to work.. but, was tired n all.. perhaps too mani things happenin n oso numerous stuffs 2 handle within 2 short weeks of vacation.. work was fine.. .b4 work, mood was okie too.. during work, my mood start to change due to the messages i received from similar person.. its lik.... wth... are words meant to played about?? its like what he say n do is totalli 2 diff things... i cant believed it.. is it true that words are reali not meant to be trusted?? as action owis have a greater impact than words..??? n still can gave me tt kind of answers... haix... what m i supposed to do.. think u've changed.. n 4 miie, its time 4 miie to change tooo.... simply jux miie, myself n ii.. its bez 2 believe, trust n rely on myself... is it reali not worth to hav trust n belief in others 4 certain things or maority of things?? who can advice miie??
8:06:00 PM
Thursday, June 12, 2008
its a happie n sad day 4 miie.. had work till about 7pm.. head down to cineleisure to mit catherine, alvin,wei min, guang liang, yong long, julia, jieying n sis 4 dinner.. it is to help jieying celebrate her bdae one day in advance as her family will be celebrating with her tmr.. we waited 4 another to arrive but was alright.. we chat as some of us had not met up for some time.. i shopped around cine while awaitin their arrival.. we den went to hongkong cafe 4 dinner.. i had the black pepper spaghetti.. it was not too bad especialli the black pepper pork chop n the sauce.. haha... we tried one another fd especialli miie..heheh.. like beri greedy hor?? in fact, its jus a taste of the diff dishes.. hahahah... we chat, laugh n even bought a slice of cake 4 jieying.. she felt a little embarrassed ... so oli yong long sang the bdae song softly as there were mani diners dining dere... we left at 9plus n head home as some of us are either working tmr or havin attachment.. we all walked down to dhoby ghaut to take the train home.. jieying n julia take the nsl while the rest of us take nel... we chat while inside... we all gt home arnd 11plus... had a fun day but oso had a bad news received from a fren.. backtrack a little, while still chatting in hongkong cafe, one of my fren called miie n inform miie a bad news... a fellow fren of ours whom we knew from school camp had past away. i was shocked as i heard this.. i was like asking when,why n how cum??? its like mani qns startin arising as he was serving his ns.. n my fren told mi he left us while in dere due to heat stroke.. it was reali a sad news for all of us.. he was a fun n joyous person n was known to us as da tou... he was friendly n cheerful as well... you'll ne missed, my dear friend.. i will not forget the encouragements which he had given miie in the mist of the freshmen oreintation camp/workshop as i am having an exam for my private course. n after the paper, i report in late for the 1st day of foc n he asked miie how was the paper n all.. he told miie to let him know my result when it was released. n indeed, i told him the result n he congrats miie as i passed.. it is indeed a loss 4 miie to lose such an encouragin, friendly n joyous.. dere r oso memories from the camp tt i'll rmb thou we oli get to know each other at the end of 2006 during otc... u r simply a great person to know.. we had to reali treasure all our loved ones as well as our lives... do not have ani regrets in life... we'll all remember u 4eva, my dear fren..
11:41:00 PM
Monday, May 19, 2008
it was Vesak day today.. everyone was out havin fun... couples will be spending their time tgt.. but, for my n some of my frenz, we decide to hab our project meeting today... at starbucks.. hahah... as we all are busi wif our own stuffs, we all agree to meet today since it was a public holi.. it was alright in the morning till when i left my house.. msg him n instead of replying back, he called mi.... we had a little quarrel over something.. its lik,my day was ruined like tt... but. luckily, the project meetin and discussion wif my groupmates help to salvage my day... we had fun and our discussion lasted 4hours plus.. we discuss on two diff projects... he did msg miie... we were supposed to meet today as he was not workin n all.. however, he said he was gg out wif his mum.. upon seein this, i gt a bit pissed (perhaps i realli dread last min changes n petty???) but jux ignore since i m habin my project so i am not so bothered by it...at 3plus, we ended our project.. and, we girls went shopping.. haha... mi n cait bought 2 pairs of shoes each.. mi bought 2 black pairs n was reali elated.. we den head to cafe cartel to have our late lunch or shld it be call dinner since its arnd 4pm.. ahaha... cait,mi n pearl share two dishes : chicken and mushroom marcaroni, shirlin had crispy pork chop while char n meizhu oso had the chicken n mushroom marcaroni... while waitin for our food, jackson, my fren came over to say hi to mi n cait cux he knew cait too.. he was wif his gf.. we were damn funni.. we told him to bring his gf over to say hi.. he reali bring her over and we exchange greetings and he intro us.. hahah.. reali lucki to see him.. our food arrives.. we were diggin into our food.. it was reali delicious... hahah... by about 5pm, we were done nad so we split ways.. char,mz, shir n pearl went shoppin while cait n mi went home.. chris came n he dropped mi off at pasir ris. thanks chris.. haha.. i then took bus home.. hehehe...in the bus, he call mi again,n i dunno y, we quarrel again n my mood was ruined again.. it was lik, b4 my proj,mood was ruined.. after my day was salvaged, it was ruined again.. thus, here i am, talkin bout diff stuffs... haix... gona do stuffs to make myself forget bout the unhappiness... tmr will be a beta day i belief... by night, my mood was beta as i focus on some other things...
7:33:00 PM
Sunday, May 18, 2008
what is sunday meant to be or for?in my perception, sunday should be a day of relaxation, spent time wif family or even with ur partner if one is in a relationship.. it should be a day filled with happiness or meaningful things.. but how cum majority of my sunday owis ends up the same? its always filled with reali, reali last min changes.. its not the first time from him.. n everytime there are changes on his side, i will be the one having to bear it or accept the last min change... is it being fair to mi??? its reali unfair for mi i feel... its not tt its not meaningful, cux i did some of my own stuffs.. its like everything is decide n said by him... changes oso by him..den in the end, its lik i gt the blame n is my fault... its reali hard to swollen this situation.... can ani1 out thewre understand how i m feeling....??? any1 to giv mi piece of advice?? haix... i reali dunno what i shld do... i m tired... n have to cope wif numerous things.... y??? y?? y??? perhaps i should just focus on doing my stuffs on sunday... so tt i will not be pissed nor had my mood runi for such reason when its not even my fault n i gt the blame from him.. sayin mi being not understanding and all... but... my mood now is beta after i spoke to my friend who gav mi some advice and after some cooling down myself... however, i do not reali wish sunday to always end up like tt... haix.. not my ideal sunday... hopefuli can improve........................................ tired......
8:35:00 PM
sambal chili pork
cabbage with tan hoon n dried prawns
bean curd n egg with black pepper
