today was xmas eve... but.......... where has the atmosphere disappeared to??? how cum i cant feel it?? when has this feeling start to feel lost whenever any special season arrived like now xmas??i do not know.. the day just seem to be another day.. perhaps a busy day?a bored day?another passing day? hmm... this, i m unsure too.. i can tell no longer... has spent my whole afternoon doing my laptop bcux gt virus.. den once done, went to work.. suppose to work from 6 to 10pm, but since the sl asked wanna leave earli a not, so i agree.. as i oso din wan to work.. so left earli.. den suppose to go to my fren house 4 xmas party.. initialli agree to go.. however,in the end decided not to go le bcux i gt no more mood due to certain reason.. my bf den send mi home.. he pick 2 of his other frenx up along the way n they also persuade mi to go n hab fun but, i still decided nt 2 go le.. decided to go home n stay at home... hmm.. since no mood den dun wan go le.. scared dampen pple mood.. haix.. wat a day man... hate such occasions nowadays n i dunno y.. mayb its bcux of changes in my life n the mani things that have been revolving arnd mi this few days, wks... i dont know anymore.. .hopefuli the feelings for special occasions will cum back.. hahaha... till here i end..!!!