Sunday, December 30, 2007
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went to redhill,the magic box for the Volunteer Retreat, it was from 2pm to 4plus,5pm.. i, arina n wendy left first as we had something on.. i was supposed to go sengkang to do something,but changed of plan,went to grandma house.
after a while, head down to bugis with sis to meet up with the other volunteers - tanchun,lijuan,sarah, jonathan,lincoln and kaijun. we had a small gathering.. dinner at Sketches. we girls ordered pizzas while the guys ordered pasta..
we chit-chat and a bit of shoppings.the guys join us, and they also entertained themselves by callin their frenz.. they are reali funi.. we girls shop n bought things.. haha.. we left at arnd 9plus to ten at night.. it had been a long day.. reali glad to hav fun with u guys and girls. .cheers..
2:23:00 AM
Friday, December 28, 2007
i am reali wondering how much longer can i take it.. when is it tt i will break down?? ytd?? i almost cant tak it le, and the pressure n stress is simply to much for mi to bear.. why mux additional stressed and complications of other matters arised at such a point in time?? WHY????? i dun understand. i dun voiced out anithin doesnt mean tt i dun nt hab my own stand or tt i totally agree wif wat had being said in terms of diff pple viewpoints... i dint voiced out anithin as i do nt wan more complications to arise or in other words make the situation worst.. BUT........... shld understand how i m feelin.. its not simply sayin "3 mths is not long" 3 mths is not tt short as how its being emphasize.. diff pple hab diff thinkin n perspectives of whether 3 mths is short or long... so it can be determined neither can it b decided by a person or few to say it n want others to feel the same.. its nv true for most things.. as pple thinks n reacts differently.. haix,.. y mux a decision be made when a decision had alrdy been decided..?? whats the point of havin a discussions when things have alrdy been finalised n cant b changed..?? hav been fied n instructions mux b followed.. shldnt hav said discussed when one's mind hav been fixed to the decision alrdy.. its pointless! pointless! pointless! i hate it when what had been discussed is indeed useless, redundant.. the feelings that i am experiencing is reali hard to bear n guex no one will understand what i going thro.. the pressure level tt i had been gg thro the past few days, castin aside the necessary pressure from projs n IJs.. this matter is addin unnecessary pressure to mi.. is it a need to make things turn out lik tt, makin it seem lik, there's no room fro discussion??? who will spare a thought for mi if i spare a thought for others?? it wun be fair if oli one party is compromising... haix.....i reali dunno.. if i reali can take it no more, i will definitely breakdown.. have sort of breakdown ytd night le.. too mani things had been happening n y of all period, NOW?? its lik i m tryin to focus on sch stuffs yet these falls in, makin mi moodless to do anithin.. hav to worry n think bout this matter... thanks to all my frenz for being there for mi, comforting mi n assuring mi bout things. givin mi the strength n support tt i much needed at this moment.. n there is oso the special u, supportin mi no matter what, as long as my decision is right.. thank alot for frenz who chat with mi, be it msn, phone or msg.. i reali reali appreciate it...
4:53:00 PM
Monday, December 24, 2007
today was xmas eve... but.......... where has the atmosphere disappeared to??? how cum i cant feel it?? when has this feeling start to feel lost whenever any special season arrived like now xmas??i do not know.. the day just seem to be another day.. perhaps a busy day?a bored day?another passing day? hmm... this, i m unsure too.. i can tell no longer... has spent my whole afternoon doing my laptop bcux gt virus.. den once done, went to work.. suppose to work from 6 to 10pm, but since the sl asked wanna leave earli a not, so i agree.. as i oso din wan to work.. so left earli.. den suppose to go to my fren house 4 xmas party.. initialli agree to go.. however,in the end decided not to go le bcux i gt no more mood due to certain reason.. my bf den send mi home.. he pick 2 of his other frenx up along the way n they also persuade mi to go n hab fun but, i still decided nt 2 go le.. decided to go home n stay at home... hmm.. since no mood den dun wan go le.. scared dampen pple mood.. haix.. wat a day man... hate such occasions nowadays n i dunno y.. mayb its bcux of changes in my life n the mani things that have been revolving arnd mi this few days, wks... i dont know anymore.. .hopefuli the feelings for special occasions will cum back.. hahaha... till here i end..!!!
11:36:00 PM
Sunday, December 16, 2007
today was a fun day.. the ben club children is havin a xmas party at mount faber safra organise by rockwell, the sponsor for bendemeer club. the party was a successed. the kids enjoyed themselves, had fun n most importantly, their xmas wish for 2007 came true in terms of their xmas wish..we arriced at mount faber safra at around 2pm.. settle them down and rockwell sponsors n organisers took over.. den pastor lawrence, li juan, sis n mi went to st.james power station to look at the fash bash there.. the designs are unique n creative. we went back to mount faber at arnd 3plus to 4pm. the games ended n sis,mi n lijuan helped to serve the food to the kids, the sponsors n their families members.. i enjoyed the process n it reminds mi of the time when i was workin in the F&B industry. it was a meaningful n fun thing.. we head back to touch at arnd 5pm. at there, found out that jonathan pang, my sec sch fren god-bro was in quanwei cell group.. its like......... OMG!!!!!!! gt a chance to bump into our sec sch mate even though its not a direct e.. hahhah...gt back to ben club at 5plus n i gt to rush off for work at 7pm.. was tired.. went to work n asked if i could leave earli, cux tired but...haix... cant.. gt to work till 2am.. was tired n i kept yawning.. but...its alright lahx.. gt home at arnd 3am..
3:45:00 AM
Thursday, December 13, 2007
finali the day tt marks the end of the mid-sem test have arrived,... hurray!!! yeahh... holidays is here again.. can relax but oso hav to mug for projects... hehhe!! have been a taxing n stressed 4 days.. haha.. went to have lunch at subway with my classmates -- gab,shawn,crest,ben,jamin, char,pearl n cait.. hahaha... after tt the guys are healthy.. 4 of them went gym n ben went swimmin.. as for us girls............................... the usual.... hahah... went shoppin.. we head down to bugis n do shoppin.. hahah.. but cait left shortly after we arrived.. so left char, mi n pearl.. we shop at bugis street.. a while ltr, she went to mit her fren n left us two girls.. haha,. i m reali doin shoppin.. OMG!!! hahaha... i bought a top at oli $10 n a skinny jean at $29.. .haaha.. its lik... i nv thot skinny jean suit mi when i tried a few times in the past.. but 2dae, found one tt i lik.. perhaps its the design, cuttin as well as the colour.. hahaha... den pearl n mi went parco- sakae find char.. hahaa... left at 4 plus cux tired n char went vivo.. suppose to mit up with bingshun n leslie but,.... they took lik years to reach bugis,, thus, when they on their way, told them tt we leavin le.. ops... sori.. haha.. had fun n enjoyment despite the tiredness.. hahahaha....
10:51:00 PM
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
i was unable to go for the A&P revision lec due to my TP.. it was in the mornin.. b4 tt, i had revision with my instructor.. but dunno y, suddenly my control n judgement all wrong.. he den say told mi one thing is tt i'm late for my lesso, thus, leadin to mi being disorietated.. tts y i mixed up everything.. then i'm nervous personaally.. haix.. had about one hr of revision.. den wait for the time to arrived.. my bf was dere wif mi but i'm still nervous.. haix.. butterflies in my stomach as i do nt know which test route i will get n oso whether my tester is gd or bad... and, i do nt hav the least bit of confidence. haix.. soon, the time had arrived n our test route was known n the tester came n call for us.. now, its the time..... oh my god.. i'm like......... shit, nervous nervous... started off wif the circuit.. parallel, directional change, slope, vertical, s-course n cran course.. n oh my.. vertical i made a wrong judgement, stike curb. in my heart, it was lik...... gone gone gone.. .fail alrdy. . den last station, cran course, i turn a liitle late perhaps or speed shld slow down to n even slower slower slower speed.. i dunno.. as i feel tt the speed is alrdy veri slow.. yet, i strike curb while turnin. i reverse, panic n nervous, i 4gt to turn my steering wheel back, move forward, strike again, haix..... till the tester gt to tell mi to turn right. .n i m sure, its a fail.. i even said out,"i know i fail already" however, the tester did not discourage mi, he simply says, " u r doin well". its not a bad thing as he wants mi go on with the test.. mine, was test route 3.. it will turn to a small road, so on n so forth. .it was gd all along except tt at 1 traffic light i delayed in movin off.. n when turnin back into the centre, dere is a manwalkin in.. my speed had slowed down, n i m in lane... however.......................................... (hmm... i shall nt mention le... ) damn sad... i gt a tick for immediate failure... sad sad sad .................. but................ haix......... wat can i do........ i cant do anithin now.. its a reality.. .i merely had to face it n take my TP AGAIN>>>>>> haix................. disappointed but at least i knew n expected it... so........... can oli had myself to blame.....
9:37:00 PM
about me!
a simple girl who likes to dream of certain things that might be impossible
aims high and hav numerous aspirations.. wonder if it can be fulfilled
LIKES
sports- canoeing,badminton,swimming
listening to music
read magazines/storybooks
shopping, blogging
Webmiss:
juliana
Since:
11 jan 1988
temasek polytechnic
majoring in marketing
hopes to get into university
Singapore
:)
TRYING to LIKE ?
hmm.. not veri sure.. but for now, it will be the......
havin to have ample time to cope with researches and personal commitmentbr>
likin the hectic n packed life of mine which i have carved out??
! >-.-<"
wants!
obtain excellent grades in poly
get myself in a place in U
treasuring my boyfriend till the time that beholds......... eternity(",>
have a good health
hopes miracles will happen
more efficient time management
to get a position of my ideal ambition
CANT live WITHOUT
u r my love
the one who is able to understand me
the one who can comfort n calm mi down
the one who is able to talk sense into me
the one who can give me words of wisdom and advice
the one who will shower me with love,care and concern
the one who will tolerate mi when i'm stressed and fed up about projects or other stuffs
i have found u n will treasure u till the last i breathe..
thank 4 being undeerstanding n giving in to mi at times...
no one can replace the special position that i have kept u in
i luv n miss ya <3
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